The competition this weekend was an awesome experience– I was lucky enough to be part of a really supportive and killer team who gave it their all. And I think we did great.

The experience was also really humbling. As unrealistic as it sounds, part of me was expecting to walk onto the competition floor and pick up where I left off two years ago. Two years ago when I was training consistently, competing regularly, oh and hadn’t recently carried and birthed a small human.

So when I couldn’t clean close to what I wanted or had to drop the bar, a little part of me felt like a failure.